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She’s got this stimpiness, it’s in her bones, and when she looks at it she can’t see her. She never sees her yknow? Never, only glimpses true but they a fragments always always colored by the stimpiness. The eyes just can’t be kind they can’t remove themselves from the stimpiness. The words are terrible, more said, less felt. Tired. So tired. Wish I could say more

Scared

My failures are impacting others

I was so scared that now it’s too late

I’m so stupid

I’m so stupid and if I kill myself it’ll only hurt him

I can’t bear the thought

I’m so fucking stupid

Dumb trash

Stupid fucking waste

No one gets it

I’m so stupid

Why can’t they just treat me like shit

Why can’t they just be fucking honest

Stupid stupid stupid brainless coward loner weirdo gross dumb fucking loser

Loser