Author: Amelia Victrix

Hi Diary,Frankly, I just don’t know where I want to go with this writing today. Usually I don’t, I just know that you’re kind of my like….you’re the place I go when everything is fucked or everything is okay. I’m not okay diary. I’m really really not, It’s all a brain stew of problems and…

Sometimes life plays funny tricks on us huh? This one’s a long-time coming.Hello Diary! It’s been a while yeah? Two months, and a lots happened.Tomie, my spider? Not exactly dead, but you know that. I wasn’t sure, when I saw the molt, her container was empty, I was really depressed, honestly, the whole week was…

The past few days I’ve been wanting to type up something, anything, last year around this time was pretty bleak for me too, though I didn’t really expect to write this in this state. I’ve had, a rough week and an even rougher day. I hate my mourning periods because it means numbness, I’ll be…

Heyhey Diary,Lately I’ve been kinda playing classroom frog in my spare time, seems like 1/4th of my week is just therapy or dissection. I’d be lying if I said it wasn’t half stressful, sometimes it feels like I have to weigh authenticity with saving face, I’m only really ever good at pretending when it’s for…

Hi Diary, Been about almost two weeks huh? Hard to believe, I got caught up in some major whirlwinds and kinda let the diary slip, I’ve been working on art, truthfully I feel off balance on progress. I feel like I’ve kinda shelled myself off emotionally, too much action, too much mental density. I’ve been…

Hi Diary,I wish I could say this time I’m coming to you would be a happy one but I’m crashing hard and honestly it’s my fault. Japanese is still progressing, I’m doing art even though I can’t say I’m liking any of it, even the pose studies I thought were decent last week are just…

Heyhey Diary, I was spending so much time busy on a dopamine rush that now that I’m crashing I think it’s appropriate to talk to you. Lately my daydreams have been a lot more vivid, feels like my spirals are a lot easier to control too, I catch myself all the time. I catch myself…

Hi Diary,It’s been 12 days, but honestly I wanted to write to you about two ago. Unfortunately, each time I sat down my page stayed blank, or I could barely push myself to do this. Today however, is special, today is another one of those “my days”, but I’m getting ahead of myself not that…

Hi Diary,it’s been, what, a week? Time goes slower now, or maybe a bit faster.I wanted to tell you about my dreams, even if it hurts knowing that I had them. Dreams are weird and wonderful, to me a dream is a reflection of what someone’s thinking about, their fears, their flaws. I’d be stupid…

I had a series of loosely interspersed dreams all fixating on a group of hackers that were taking down evil corporations, details are kinda rough but when things got weird was when one of the hackers entered a VRChat-esque game where a kid with a lain avatar was running away from a killer. Obviously this…