Author: Amelia Victrix

  • I listened to a heartbeat and realized how comforting they are.

    ba bump ba bump 365 days in a year ba bump ba bump through every sigh and tear ba bump ba bump when I’m wrought with fear ba bump ba bump it is always here ba bump ba bump never giving up ba bump ba bump even when I erupt ba bump ka thump till…

  • I’m having a hard time

    I’m having a hard time believing myself, I’m having a hard time believing in you, I’m having a hard time being happy and I’m having a hard time living life. I’m fully convinced this life is my hell and all I have to do is change my ways and succeed in more ways than financial…

  • Scared Silly

    Truthfully today is still a bleak day despite all I’ve done.I cooked two meals, I made a special hide for my bunny, I even cleaned up my home.Yet this under-cropping dark side of me is still here making me feel like I should just go. I’m hurt, hurt that friends didn’t value me enough to…

  • Rain in a town without

    There are only so many words that can come to mind at this point in my life. But only temporarily, that’s my anti-strife. I am compelled to exorcise the demons that once again prevent me from sleeping, the unfulfilled fears, the non-regulated negative fantasies that I hold with all my heart. For the last few…

  • Testing Theories, testing myself.

    Turbulent times ahead. Suddenly sharply so many simple tasks to succeed in. I’m interested in interacting with inconceivable challenges. Especially examining every external effort I expect excruciating difficulty with. Challenges constantly change and create character. If I intend to create an impact. Lots lack the levity and lefthandedness to let their limits lose their power.…

  • 4/6/21

    Been a while since an impulse has left me smitten. Developed a new strategy based on bad habits, procedure has made me more rabid. I don’t really know or understand what I’m feeling right now, the more words I expel the more out of this world I bow. Maybe it’s numbness, maybe isolation taking root…

  • A Mute Voice

    Ithink there’s a dark truth hidden in every corner of groups, that despite the attempts at playing friend and bonding there is and will always be one constant truth. I’ve been on my journey for such a relatively short amount of time that it can be hard to say if I’ve even fully adjusted to…

  • Lost art

    The following is a collection of some works I never published, I know I talk about writing from raw emotion but these posts were written very much in the middle of arguments or breakdowns. I hope that in them you can see a bit of yourself and maybe come up with a better way to…

  • Shallow Breath, Crumpled Paper

    I’m on the bedOpening up woundsPulling out rocksCreating a monsoonBlack streaks down my fleshRunning longMy lungs are emptyGasping hardMy words are howlsThe pain cuts deepExposing hurtsShearing sheepI want to curlInto a ballLeave this behind meAct of fallAlien sensationWarm embraceHanding me tissuesBlowing my faceBalls of paperInside a bagMy outburst are nastyNo movie magic hadAt any momentCould…

  • On hair care

    Chapter 1: Hair care Hair care is the weirdest most semi-complex thing like…ever Most guides for women or even mtfs don’t cover it, maybe it’s because most women know what men don’t. Hairs, like skin, have pores. These pores expand and contract with temperature change, specifically water temperature. But how does this benefit you? Why should you care? Well…